For me, I have a voice inside my head that tells me whenever I have an opportunity to kill myself I should. Standing on a ledge, “just jump off” whispers in my head. Driving around a fast corner, speed up and spin into a tree. I work on small aircrafts. What if you just slipped off the aircraft getting out of the cockpit. How close can you get to the intake before you get sucked in, try it. On the ship, its only 35 feet you cannot die…. if you do it right, try it. Sitting in

Do you have to be memorable to write a memoir? Well known or extraordinary to be able to have a memoir? I think of this often with the impact I want to make on the world. Is making a difference in a small forgotten town enough? Am I even considered extraordinary? Everyone has a story to tell, is my self-discovery journey worth telling to anyone who will listen? What will I be known for, smiling? Falling asleep easily? Being the person with a story for everything and ideas sca

I wrote the following while stuck in this limbo of wanting to give up begging for medical treatment and accepting my fate as permanent. I didn't know how to voice to my therapist or neurologist about what I was going through. I always think about editing the grammar for this piece, I feel that the scattered bit of it adds to the conveyed feel of the piece. During my recovery I was still working full time. Thoughts in a split seconds knocked from my brain  I opened my eyes to

I was reading “How to Tell a Story” by the Moth Group. I’m on page xix of the introduction. It suddenly occurs to me that before I moved to Maryland and then joined the Military, everyone in my town and neighboring towns knew who I was. they didn’t know my name but they knew who I was or what I did. I first was everywhere, bars, businesses, coffeeshops, and just around. Once I turned 21 and could go to my friends’ performances, I started performing myself. I was out volunteer

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going off the radar. its been a week. two weeks in, I already failed. but why write if there is no inspiration? yes I could write another...