Courage I think is scary. You become courageous and provide an action without really knowing what could happen next just knowing that that’s the decision you want to make. When I was, I think 7 my neighbor and my mother got into a yelling match over something with the backyard. My mom I think got in his face or personal space and he pushed her down. It felt like I glided down the steps because at that age the abuse hadn’t started and that was my momma. I got to the back door,

For me, I have a voice inside my head that tells me whenever I have an opportunity to kill myself I should. Standing on a ledge, “just jump off” whispers in my head. Driving around a fast corner, speed up and spin into a tree. I work on small aircrafts. What if you just slipped off the aircraft getting out of the cockpit. How close can you get to the intake before you get sucked in, try it. On the ship, its only 35 feet you cannot die…. if you do it right, try it. Sitting in

Do you have to be memorable to write a memoir? Well known or extraordinary to be able to have a memoir? I think of this often with the impact I want to make on the world. Is making a difference in a small forgotten town enough? Am I even considered extraordinary? Everyone has a story to tell, is my self-discovery journey worth telling to anyone who will listen? What will I be known for, smiling? Falling asleep easily? Being the person with a story for everything and ideas sca